The truth… The truth about what? The truth about ourselves… The truth about our lives… The truth…
How can two small words have such great meaning? I don’t really know how, but I can speak to their power. Truth is something we all are looking for or striving for and this is no different for me. I have been looking for my truth for years, but it has not been until the last year that I was really ready to see it.
I have lived my life always looking to please everyone. I never rocked the boat, well, never very much. I found that if I stayed in the middle of the road I was safe. At least I felt safe. The middle of the road does not come without consequences. Losing myself was my consequence. Or I should say never really knowing myself… I was always walking with my eyes open looking to be sure I was making everyone around me happy and that way I could just fit in. Fit in with what is what I am asking myself today.
As a child I had more than my fair share of trauma at the hand of other people. And that was what lead me to seek the middle of the road, or where I felt the most safety. It hasn’t been until 20 years later that I have gained enough courage to step out into my life. Everyday I have to choose where to go, back to the edge or back to safety. Most days I choose the edge and I love the way life feels out there! That is where I want to be. Out there where I can create, live and be happy.
In my journey, I have had to look at and acknowledge my issues, my fears and traumas to get to where I could even see the edge. But I can see now, that it has been worth it. I have not gotten here by myself and I am grateful that I can continue with the help of the loving people in my life, but I do plan on continuing. This is where this blog comes into play. I want the hard lessons I have had to go through in my life to be open for my children. I do not want them to have to travel the difficult roads I have to go down to get to happiness. If I can show them my lessons and give them ahead start then I will open the doors of my life, which have been closed tightly for years, to them and to you.
“Ever since happiness heard your name, it has been running through the streets trying to find you.”
I love this quote, especially now that I have finally met happiness….
In Peace,
Michelle
WalkWhereYouLikeYourSteps 
Bravo to you, and brave of you! Give yourself a huge hug for allowing your vulnerability. I look forward to reading about your journey. It’s a scary thing to reveal oneself, but I continually have come to trust that I am enough, and that simply sharing who I am has meaning for someone.
I am certain this is true for you too. Thank you for being willing to share who you are. Lots of love
xo
Thank you Patty! Your words were just what I needed to hear!
Peace & Love,
Michelle
LOVE this, Michelle! I reposted it on Daily Dose of Inspiration! So many can relate to this. One thing though I’ll tell you since I have a few years on you….don’t count on your kids learning from YOUR mistakes. Hopefully, they will. Once I told my son, “Don’t you see that I’m trying to save you from the pain caused by my mistakes?” His answer, “Mom, sometimes we just have to learn things for ourselves.” So I allowed hime to….
Very True! Maybe a better way of saying that is to shelter them from some of things I had to go through! Thank you so much for sharing! I treasure you friendship!!
Love you!
Michelle
We travel our life the way it’s meant to be travelled although some more than others endure more experiences! these experiences turn to knowledge which then becomes our wisdom! yes we learn by our mistakes through which we gain our growth but our children cannot learn by our mistakes only by there own we are individuals walking our own path, our children will learn and grow through there very own experiences in life…. Helen
I love your first post! It takes courage and a lot of time to really know what to say and how to say it…but once you get going the words almost come out of your fingertips. It is very cathartic and therapeutic at times…I found that I really was about to express myself in ways I never thought would be imaginable…I look forward to reading more!
I am still lost in your words.
The way you express yourself is lovely and moving.
You words resonate within me …. I think maybe because I am myself
on a journey of Healing and Finding myself.
Looking forward to reading more of you … because I know that every
word you share is a sharing of your soul
Lots of Love.
Kiran from Back Towards Light.
so touchy! i am so younger than u! 🙂 I also hope I get some lessons from your post! I also Hope to answer my questions through your article…!:)
regards,
Wafa Tariq
I learned a lot… thanks again… ^_^