“Don’t let a bad day make you feel like you have a bad life!”

Who hasn’t been there? Well, I guess I should say that I have been there! Many times… I usually fight really hard not to allow myself to go there, but when I finally wave the white flag and surrender myself to those low emotions, I usually get really down. I become filled with sadness and those feelings of depression. All the sudden everything begins to show me how right I am, that everything is horrible. I know, that I am attracting those supporting factors, but somehow they make me feel right. That everything has gone to crap. I find myself just wanting to sit and wallow in the terribleness of it all. Poor pitiful me in this horrible situation, with all these horrible people doing this horrible stuff to me!! Me of all people!? I try to be positive, I try hard to be happy but THEY keep bringing me back down here!!! I QUIT!! Sound familiar? Well it does to me because those are my thoughts. But my question today is why does it feel so comfortable down there on the bottom? I know deep in my heart that is not where I am supposed to be. But it feels so familiar so much like home… Well today I realized that it is because it is easy! It is easy for me to be there blaming others, blaming the lack of money, the lack of free time. That takes all the pressure off me!

Happiness is work! Some may tell you otherwise, you may feel otherwise and if you do, please feel free to share the secret! But for me right now, being happy requires not looking at the negative. Not falling back onto the easy path of self-pity. Being happy requires that I see myself in a different light. The light that I was created to be in, the light that makes all my dreams possible. But being in that light makes me scared. Because if I am there, in all my happy glory, then who can I blame if I fail? Who will look at me and say, “poor thing, she had such a rough time”? If I am happy and being who I was created to be, there is no one but me there on that the amazing yellow brick road of life. No one but me creating my reality, and no one to blame if I don’t. Now I don’t know about you, but that scares the hell out of me! My ego has been blaming others for years, and now I have to open myself up to the possibility of all the pressure, the choice to make my dreams come true or not. My fears react to that just writing it! But when I really think about how I want my life to go, I know that I want all the power. I know that I do not want someone else to be in charge of my experiences. It is my life after all. I should be the one to make it or break it so to speak! And once I see my fears for what they are they lose their power over me and that really pisses my ego off. It wants to hold into to its role in my head, in my life. But it has had its time in power long enough! I am taking back the power, the power that was rightfully mine all along! Good Bye ego, Hello Life!

“Fear cannot take what you do not give it.”

In Peace and Love,

Michelle