The truth… The truth about what? The truth about ourselves… The truth about our lives… The truth…

How can two small words have such great meaning? I don’t really know how, but I can speak to their power. Truth is something we all are looking for or striving for and this is no different for me. I have been looking for my truth for years, but it has not been until the last year that I was really ready to see it.

I have lived my life always looking to please everyone. I never rocked the boat, well, never very much. I found that if I stayed in the middle of the road I was safe. At least I felt safe. The middle of the road does not come without consequences. Losing myself was my consequence. Or I should say never really knowing myself… I was always walking with my eyes open looking to be sure I was making everyone around me happy and that way I could just fit in. Fit in with what is what I am asking myself today.

As a child I had more than my fair share of trauma at the hand of other people. And that was what lead me to seek the middle of the road, or where I felt the most safety. It hasn’t been until 20 years later that I have gained enough courage to step out into my life. Everyday I have to choose where to go, back to the edge or back to safety. Most days I choose the edge and I love the way life feels out there! That is where I want to be. Out there where I can create, live and be happy.

In my journey, I have had to look at and acknowledge my issues, my fears and traumas to get to where I could even see the edge. But I can see now, that it has been worth it. I have not gotten here by myself and I am grateful that I can continue with the help of the loving people in my life, but I do plan on continuing. This is where this blog comes into play. I want the hard lessons I have had to go through in my life to be open for my children. I do not want them to have to travel the difficult roads I have to go down to get to happiness. If I can show them my lessons and give them ahead start then I will open the doors of my life, which have been closed tightly for years, to them and to you.

“Ever since happiness heard your name, it has been running through the streets trying to find you.” 

I love this quote, especially now that I have finally met happiness….

In Peace,

Michelle